Scent.

I can smell him on me even though ive had a shower. its nice.

First.

So after many months of unrequited love bullshit we've finally slept together.

I was a bit worried... were my expectations too high or would i ruin the friendship.

So to my surprise it was pretty much perfect, the connection is almost unbearable.

I honestly believe that this is the best thing that could happen to both of us romantically.

But i don't want to get ahead of myself and what i might want, may be different to what he wants.

And that scares me. Does he just want this to be a casual fling or will it progress into something more?

I dont want to get hurt, i haven't felt this alive and safe for about four years.... fuck.

He makes me feel as though nothing else matters when he holds me tight.

Am i in to deep? Probably...

I think he's perfect and he thinks i'm amazing so why cant that just be it?

Personal.

ive decided to dedicate this blog to being a personal one.

ive never been the type to have a diary but i think im just gonna write some shit on here, how im feeling ect... not really sure if its a good thing and probably wont last very long knowing me haha but if you want to see fun stuff then www.816am.tumblr.com is the place to go :)

what it is...

and you said i was beautiful and amazing.

i cant believe how perfect the feeling is.

and i don't wanna push you,

but i really think this could work out.

ill wait and wait, but with all my selfishness

i really hope my love and affection

doesn't give you the confidence to roam.

i said it'll just be fun, but i want so much more.

fuck.

i really dig the boy.

Sweetness.

Oh Crush.

he lives on the other side of the country. i just want he back here. at least for a day. hes a babe.