Monday, August 22, 2011

Whats Logical?

I've been trying to work out everything in a logical fashion today. here i go again with the over thinking... i thought i wanted to be single until i started seeing my lover and so he changes the game and i feel as though not wanting to say ''the one" but there is potential for great things there, i believe. The problem is that i'm going to have to wait, i think for a very long time too. First thing i have to wait for is for him to completely get over his ex.... they were together for basically seven years its a big deal. and secondly that makes him believe he has missed out on so much of his youth... going out ect... where as i have done that already and id rather stay home, i do still like going out just not every weekend and getting absolutely fucked...that does have to do with where we live though. and with that comes the one night stands, he's slept with three people and as much as i cant imagine him becoming some stud, i know i have to let him go out and do it otherwise he would completely resent me in the long run.

so i know i have to let him do this.... but for my own sanity do i stop seeing him? that will leave me lonely but will it make me less attached to him? fuck i don't know. should i tell him how i'm feeling... or only some of it.. i don't want to scare him off completely. i know i do get too emotionally involved with guys, but this weekend really hurt me, i wish it didn't have to be so complicated and the timing was right. the timing is never right.


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